I Couldn’t Find Words

Hi! I couldn’t find worddds! Haaa…currently fasting for Ramadhan (this post is scheduled forward). Slow down on the net but having a few titles in my list to blog about but at the moment, I just couldn’t find words. Maybe due to the hungry effect but I had quite heavy meal during sahur, and it’s just 10 am now! It doesn’t make sense, self.

Been writing a quarter-way through just to fathom out what am I actually talking about? It’s usually the intro para. Will kick start with something else, typing and typing up until more than 100 words and still couldn’t connect with the topic I was supposed to write in the first place.

Something is wrong. When I have free time like this, the brain just won’t deliver. When I am busy with so many things in mind and my hands and feet are all occupied, ideas are also pouring. And suddenly you know, when you have ideas crossing through, you won’t wanna let it be gone forgotten. So you hold, you hold with your eyes rounding and mouth mumbling to keep those ideas stay in your mind. You’re still moving, still being busy, but now everything works in an auto-mode. See how wonderful humans can be. After a while, your mind is back to reality and all you know is that your errands are all done. The difference is whether it’s well done, or worst done!

Is it you? Or just me??

That’s about it. Sometimes, we can’t force our mental and physical to sync. They are their own selves, to be catered exclusively. Haaa what is that?? I am purely babbling non-sense here. If you’re still reading until this word, you have been wasting your time about 5 minutes. I have no point honestly.. I just couldn’t find words. Oh, don’t curse. I’ll be back with a nifty piece! Toodles.

Till the next post,



Assalamualaikum, welcome to my blog and welcome 2017! Today is 1st of January 2017, the day I re-enter this blog. It’s been more than four years since my last post before I abandoned this blog for so long.

The baby in my tummy was already born and he’s a big boy now! Not only that, he even has a little brother already! Haha.. how time flies with so many things happened in between.

Today I decided to blog again. Actually not today, it’s been like 2 years I feel like I wanted to blog but I’ve been procrastinating myself. So it’s my new year resolution to start blogging again. Blogging is always something that I love to do but it’s a commitment. Now I pledged to make time and effort to write habitually because this is actually my little passion.

At 12 midnight with the background of fireworks sound and people screaming happy new year! happy new year! at my apartment now, I switched on my laptop and googled my own blog. Luckily I managed to find my old email and reset my password and yeay here I am.

I promise to keep writing and will not abandon this ever again! Wow, typical new year spirit on the very first day of the year right? And it will remain for the month of January. After that? Krik krik? Haha. Hopefully not. I’m gonna make it. I know I’m gonna make it.

May this New Year bring us all new joy, new hope, new inspiration, new goals and new achievements with new taste of life.

Till the next post,

Pregnancy @ Week 21 : 4th Check-up

Hello Readers! So sorry for the late update on my last checkup. Two weeks overdue! I actually have written it earlier but its all always unfinished. But its finally done now for your reading….

Today in history we became the very first patient that stepped into the clinic before anyone else. You know what time? 7:15am ocayy! Haha… Because it’s Friday with too many things to be settled in the first half, so we went out early lah…too early pulak tu. Registration counter was still closed and will only open at 8:00am. Plenty of time! But café and coffee house sume pon x bukak lg. Yg ade pon 7e. So we just bought light breakfast and waited until almost 8 and went up to the O&G area again.

Registration starts at 8:00am but consultation usually starts at 9:00am. So we still gotta wait for another hour. But when we were waiting for the registration and pusing2 around that area taking pictures and main handphone, I saw my doctor’s around. Dr. Noor Aini tu..She’s in already. Awalnyerr…

My Peneman @ Ayah! =)

So after the registration, we went to the doctor’s room, even the assistants pon blom ade lg. Fine lah, we’d wait until 9. But then, because the doc has seen us around a few times, she just called us in and proceed with the check-up. Ahh, baikk doctor! Ultrasound machine pon blom on lg. Urine and weight pon blom amek lg. Usually it’s all done before the consultation because of the long waiting list. But she’s willing to entertain us early. Credit! 🙂

It was just a brief session, and this is how my baby looks like at his 20 weeks 😉 :


See the hand is so obvious! Doc asked us to count the fingers. All fives J And then she scanned through all parts making sure there’s no any ‘ketumbuhan’ or anything suspicious. Alhamdulillah, it looks all fine..insyaAllah its fine..Ameen..

The above of my baby that looks like a ‘cloud’ is the placenta (uri). While the black color in the middle is my amniotic fluid a.k.a ‘air ketuban’. My doc said, if the air ketuban banyak, meaning = good. Meaning, ur baby is in a good condition inside and tak sempit.

What makes us smiling even wider this time is that, there was a point, our baby was like facing the screen..so it really looks like he’s looking at us! I can see his eyes, nose, mouth and even ears! Well yea…it’s blurry but we can detect yea we can detect..by instinct :p and with doc’s guidance of course. Because usually we look at him from the side. Now it’s face to face. It’s sooooo sweet! Aww… :’)

Done with the consultation and the next appointment will be one month from now – 10th December 2012. Before we’re off to work, of course I din’t forget my to-do’s that I’ve listed in my previous post.

1) 4D Ultrasound – I read the ads around the clinic area that the 4D Ultrasound will be done by the Radiology department and we got to book for an appointment there at….level one I think. But then, just after the check-up and we’re setting up the next appointment date, the assistant told me that –

“for next checkup, if you want to do normal consultation like this, you may come on Saturday. But, if you want to “ambil gambar baby”, you have to come on weekdays,”

Me : “Ambil gambar baby? You mean the 4D Scan?”

Assistant : “Aaa yes…because that one is not done here (doc’s room). We have to call the ____ (I don’t know what), they will come up and bla bla bla (I don’t catch what she said) and they will take your baby’s picture. But that’s on weekdays only la..and there’s gonna be a separate charges of RM100.”

Hahaha….she calls it “ambil gambar baby” …haha..so funny! So cute! So I reconfirm that we don’t need to go to the radiology department or what and then just set the appointment. Its Monday, 10th December 2012…. OMG I CAN’T WAIT!!! 😀

Done one thing, next is about the Antenatal Class. Okay, this is sad. If I’m not mistaken, no, I AM NOT mistaken that I did see the notice before (since my first visit here) on the Antenatal Class (or they call it Parentcraft Class) here in SunMed – done every month for 3 sessions on the first 3 Saturdays of every month. I didn’t take note but I’m really sure they have it in December and I’ve been planning to attend it in December. But thennnn….now…. I asked them…they said…. “The last session for this year is in November. None will be held in December.”  —- What!! Oh no…  😦

Even for November one, the 1st session has started last week. If I were to slot in, I’ve missed a few topics of the whole course. It’s my first pregnancy…I won’t wanna miss a single thing, no? And worse, the fee is RM300 per couple for all the 3 sessions. But it doesn’t mean it’s RM100 per session. Bcoz if we’re picking only selected session, they will charge us RM150 per session. Meaning, I still got to pay RM300 for only 2 sessions. What a wastee… The personnel suggested me to call the respective department and ask about the openings in 2013. Maybe I can join the January one. But…..hmm…. its kinda late already. There will be topics on pregnancy that my gynae said – the class is to teach you pregnant. So jgn la pergi bile dah nak abis pregnant. See….5-6 months pregnancy is just nice right! See…I’ve well-planned it! Butt….hmm… *upset*.

So I went online and search for classes in other hospitals. I remember Columbia Asia did open Antenatal class and promote it on facebook before…and…I found this! :

It’s on 15th December 2012! Okay, just nice…and I think I got no choice. So I called them right away and booked for two seats. Done!

Well….klu ikutkan hati. I must wanna join the class in SunMed itself. Because I’m planning to deliver my baby there. But what to do..there’s no way for us and also, actually, the class they arrange is quite not-practical and yet, pricey! Here’s the comparison. For one Antenatal course in SunMed, they are arranging 3 classes, done in three weekends in a row. That equals to 12 hours! But in Columbia Asia, with the topics covered are fairly the same, everything is compressed into 3 hours only. What makes it so lengthy in SunMed? Or kat Columbia Asia nie ala2 kadar aje? Hmm… don’t mind lah. I would prefer to attend a more detailed class on this but, that 3 weekends requirement is not that practical. Not practical for the daddy laa especially! So, let’s just take it for one-shot for all. Save time, and save money as well because the fee for Columbia is only RM50! Save RM250 there…plenty! So I’ll definitely update about the class later. Stay tuned! 😉

Oh yea, one more to-do’s! Maternity/delivery package in SunMed – here’s what I got. They just gave an estimation range like this :

For Normal Delivery, 4k – 6k. For Caesarean, 7k – 9k. That would include the room charges and all lah.. Plus/minus. Quite expensive right… *jgn lah kene operate..huhu*. They provided to me the leaflet on the room charges. I’ll post it here soon.

That’s all my updates on my 4th check-up session.

Mom! =)

Update : *My lil’ one inside is 23 weeks old!*

Pregnancy @ Week 10 : 1st Check-up

I typed this entry right after I returned from the hospital. But then I forgot where did I save this file. Then I just found it now I’m gonna post it up. Read it as it is but now actually I’m already in my 15th week. Enjoy ~

Yeay, today is the day of my 1st official checkup of my pregnancy! I made an appointment at Sunway Medical Centre on 29th Aug 2012 with the O&G, Dr. Noor Aini. Oh, I’m writing a topic on “Hospital Selection”  – about how and why did I decide to choose SunMed for check-ups and delivery. Under cons. Will post it soon.

Appointment in the morning, 1st come 1st serve. Azam semangat nk dtg plg awal amek number. Tp dah hospital pon dekat ngn umah, lengah2 la…tp semangat! Hehe.. Nervous pon ade.. Takut dgr yg xbest2…huhu.

Jadi, smpi2 je kat sane kol 9:15am. Registration, isi borang, then tggu…then tggu…then tggu…hmm… I’ve expected this.  Klu nk jmp specialist kenelah sggp menunggu. Dtg awal pon kene tggu lame. N masalahnye skang kteorg smpi pon x awal! Hehe.. Tp kalau pegi KK – Klinik Kesihatan tu pon kene tggu lame jgk kan..bape ramai org pregnant. Ye x? Oh, tp yg tak best nyer, turn die tggu name dipanggil. Xde amek2 queue number. So its like susah la nk bajet2 lg bape org sblm kite kan….Sementare tggu tu die amek berat n tggi kte..

Sempat pegi breakfast kejap kat café die. Dekat je btol2 depan the clinic. And food pon not bad. Cozy jek tempat nyer… pictures ~

The compact cafe. That’s my Abg!

Nice breakfast! Sedapp…

Future Dad & Mom…insyaAllah 🙂

Finally, dah pkl 11:45am br lah name ku dipanggil. 2 n a half hours jgk laa tggu. Hah! And before die pggl tu die tanye,

“Puan ade simpan air kencing x? Ade rase nk buang air x?”

Mase die tanye tu kite baruuuu jek kuar toilet.  “Alaa….saye baru jek buang.”

“Ohh…klu boleh pegi minum air dlu lah yer..sbb klu nak scan nie better keep ‘full blader’”

Haihh….actually, Kak Uni (my sister) dh pernah bgtau pony g klu nk gi scan kene full blader. Ingat, tp tah time tu…dah rase nk kenc and kte nie mmg jenis x suke tahan kenc lg2 time nk ade ape2 like consultation mcm nie. Nnt xleh concentrate dgr  doctor ckp 😀

Dah tu, pegi la minum air kejap n dh mmg being preggy nie, all the time pon rase nk terkenc jek..so lepas dah minum air tu bgtau die, n die pggl masuk…

Sessi dgn doctor mula2, seriousss jek. Huhuhu…so, mcm biase die tanye lah tarikh2 penting, bile last period, last day ke 1st day, ble start tau pregnant, and ble check-up confirmation. Better keep the dates in ur mind so boleh jwb dgn tangkas!

Pastu doc kate ok, now saye nak scan to confirm whether u r really pregnant. Err…dah la kite mmg takut ngn false positive lg doc ckp camtu. Because this is our 1st checkup ngn die of course la die treat camtu btol x.

Kte pon naik bed die n die start scan….heee….ini adelah saat yg plg2 bunge2 for us! =p Last time kan check mase 6 weeks just nmpk sebijik bulat je. This time dah nmpk bentuk2! Hehe.. So doc tu pon start bercerita, die tunjuk ini bladder, ini yolk sac kantung mknnn tu, itu air ketuban, bla..bla…yg kte nie dah dok tertanye mane baby nyerrrr… doc dh explain yg lain2 tu br lah die ckp…and this is your baby. Aaaakk….buat suspen aje! Ini kepala die, ini badan die, jantung, ini kaki, tangan….nie hidung. Aaakk…hidung pon dah nmpk! Hehehe… Nmpk baby tu gerak2..jantung die kot. Then doc pasang heartbeat die. Alhamdulillah…ade heartbeat dah!! J

Nie dier gmbr ultrasound baby at 10 weeks :

My Babyyyyyy !!! :)))

Syukur lah…sume nyer normal. Ape yg ptt ade, ade. Based on calculation, my pregnancy is now 10 weeks and based on ultrasound measurement pon, baby is around 10 weeks plus. Alhamdulillah!

Next checkup will be on the 13th of September 2012. Supposedly checkup should be once in 4 weeks but the doc needs to call me earlier because she can’t pass week 13. In between week 11 to week 13, doc kene buat 1 scan to detect any abnormalities. After week 13,  baby normal or x normal akn nmpk same je. Dgr the word mcm takut plak…huhu..doa byk2 so that baby is normal and sehat and comel! 😉 Ameen….

And then dah…ubat plak, doc tanye ade amek ape skrg? I said Folic Acid and Neurogain. Doc kate aaa…nape amek nuerogain skrg? Its good for baby’s brain but early pregnancy baby x absorb pon. Should take it starting week 14. Aaak? Emm…membazir jek. Huhu… Semangat sgt mama nie nk baby jd pandai siang2 dah amek Neurogain! Haih..So ill stop taking that for a while and die bagi multivitamin primalet for mommy! Utk tmbh zat besi katenyer…

Kuar bilik tu, set appointment n doc kate pegi buat blood test. Tapi kiteorg lupe…terus byr and balik. Haha… sbb time tu dah excited sgt belek2 ultrasound tu!! Haiyaa… xpelah, will do it next checkup 2 minggu jek lg..

Sekian alkisah 1st checkup ku…panjang plak cite nyer..rase perlu summary sket point2 yg penting! :

1)      1st come 1st serve, sile dtg awal!

2)      Klu nak gi tu xyah breakfast dlu. Queue dlu baru then barulah cabut gi makan sementare dok tggu tu.

3)      Nak buat scan, do keep ur blader full with urine! Biar senang doc nak scan.

4)      Do remember ur important dates –  first day of last period especially.

5)      One scan must be done in between week 11 to week 13 to detect abnormalities.

6)      Neurogain hanye perlu start in the 2nd trimester and above.

Mom waiting to date her Baby! ;p

Update : *My Lil’ One inside is 14 weeks old!*

Announcing the PRE-Arrival

“You’re Gonna Be a Dad!”

Have you ever thought or have you ever imagined the moment you know you’re pregnant and how would you share it with your partner? Would you make a call straightaway and shout out “we’re gonna have a baby!!!” or, would you waittt until he comes home and keep the patience in excitement? Or, would you make something creative by giving him a box of present containing the pregnancy test that shows “Pregnant”?…how surprising!

What about me? Haha.. Actually, we once made a conversation about this.. I asked him how would he want me to break the news?? Any of the ways above?? 😀 Nope, he said he wanted us to check the home pregnancy test together! Like thattt?? So….i kept that in mind and when the time I passed my period cycle, I know what to do. But hey, that’s not what happened! Haha.. Sorry daddy-to-be, mommy’s too rushed that she didn’t wait for you! 😀

Haha…it’s not that I don’t wanna wait for him. Buttt… how if the result is negative? Would it be frustrating? It’d be sooo anti-climax so what I thought was, if that’s a negative result…let me just face it alone, right? I’m just fine… :p Actually, I once did an Ovulation Test in  the previous months…the result turned negative for all the 5 sticks 5 days that made us feel….”em, why?” Ouh, forget it first. Ovulation Test is another story I will share in different post.

So! How did I break the news to my husband?? Haha… It was a funny story..cut it short, he came home and I told him, know what he responded? “TIPU??”

Hahaha…..hello?? syg x pernah kot main2 psl pregnant b4 this! X kan la nk tipuuu…! Haha…. Apela..n then I showed him the pregnancy test, lepas tu dua2 mcm terawang2 kejap btol ke btol ke? Alhamdulillahhh………




Home pregnancy test is not a professional to confirm your pregnancy. Once you’ve seen it positive, you gotta go see doctor, he/she will do the scan on ur lower tummy and find the sac.

So after doing the home UPT, we decided to see doctor. Because we’re about to balik kampong that weekend, abg said lets just to clinic dt kg. Ok, fine..wlupon mcm x sabar okayyy nak tggu weekend!

Balik kg, we went to this one clinic…paham x perasaan x sabar nak di scan nk tgk baby dlm perut tu?? Walaupon of course la blom mcm baby pon tapi teruja semacam ok! Masuk2 je bilik doc tu, bgtau la die nk confirm pregnancy kan.

Doc tu ckp, “Ok, boleh..kte boleh buat urine test tapi…..kat cni xde ultrasound scan la. Xde machine.”

Me : ????

Me : “Oh, x buat scan ke..so camne saye nk confirm kan?”

Doc tu ckp kte buat je urine test lg skali. Tapiii….almaklumlah time tu kan bulan pause. X terase la plak nk buang. 5-10 minit dok kat toilet, xde hasil pon! Hmmmphh hampeh sgt… last2 doc tu just tanye2 last period, symptoms muntah ke x la whatsoever…n then die kate kte xleh nk confirm kan pape lah arini..tp based on ur symptoms nie say that you’re pregnant. Lagi pon  dah a week plus lmbt dtg period. Sooo…congratulations! Enjoy ur pregnancy! Bla bla blaa….

Okayyyyy…..tapiiii…..hmmmm……anti-climax tak?? Hurhh…bole pulak gi clinic yg xde scan. Ade lg satu clinic tu ade, tapi doctor plak lelaki n agak Islamic so die x buat pregnant2 nie…pulak dah.

So, blk kl jelah br kteorg pergi lg satu Klinik Sakit Puan near to our house, hmmphh doctor nie plak xtau la dr Negara mane ape die ckp pon x phm. But we managed to get an ultrasound scan lah…and yeahhhh! It’s there! Hahaha…br puas hati 😀 Walaupon yg nmpk tu hanye lah sebijik bulat aje tp oklah kan! Hehe.. Obsessed sgtt. Biase la tu~~



When is actually the right time for you to share the good news with your people, about your pregnancy? Right after you’re confirmed, you are only in the mid of the 1st trimester. Still early, too early. And as you all know, being in the 1st trimester, you are exposed to a high risk of miscarriage. Scary, isn’t it?

How can you be keeping that as a secret while that was the thing you’ve been waiting for? (Lagi2 klu org keliling asyik2 dok tanye “nie dah ade isi ke belommm?”) – Typical, right?

But, how if it ended with a pregnancy loss? You’ve been in excitement, ppl have congratulated you, you’ve started planning this and that…but then? Worthless? Sad and frustrated of course…Worse, if there’s anyone kinda-blaming you for spreading the news too fast. Like “tu laa….excited sgtt”. Devastating! So that is why some ppl would advise you to keep it low first until you have reached your 3-4 months.

But well, to me, I have my own humble opinion on this. Sharing the good news with the ppl around you in the early stage of pregnancy is nothing wrong. We never knew what’s gonna happen in the next few weeks, few months. Though keeping it low up to the second trimester, are you ever excluded from the risk in later trimester? No.

It’s your new joy. So share it with the ppl you love! Family first, definitely, and friends! Even an extended circle of friends, they might be the ones who would tell you more info you ever needed regarding your pregnancy.  That helps!

These are the ppl that gonna give you support. Though sometimes they are telling something that you already know, like jgn mkn nenas, byk kan bace surah tu surah nie..kan common tu sume..but that makes you and your baby feel lovedddd! Hehe..

Early stage of pregnancy isn’t easy with all the morning sickness and hormonal changes. So they will or should understand. And also, they are the ppl you’re gonna turn to, IF (Nauzubillah) the unwanted thing happened to happen. Imagine a situation when those ppl don’t even know you’re pregnant, and tetibe dah miscarriage. Time tu la br nak bgtau good news yg dh jd bad news. Kan mcm x best sbb dr awal pon x share …btol x?

And if you don’t even wanna tell ppl everything. Pregnant ke miscarriage ke..all you keep it to yourself (and just ur close family),manage ur emotional pain alone and move on like it never happened, there will be a situation ppl keep asking you that “favourite question”….feeling? Dah la org tu sedih dgn miscarriage nyer pastu org dok tanye2 lg like we can “never make it” or “plan ker”…biase la typical malay. So at least, if ppl do know that you have gone thru the distressful state, they shouldn’t be asking and know you are trying.

You got that conclusion? Hahah! Tbe2 pjg plak cite psl nie..ntah, rase mcm annoyed plak with certain ppl yg too superstitious and cynical. Whatever it is, its all the rezeqi from Allah. We all knew that. So, act like you know it lah!

Us, the very first person we made the call was my mom! This lil baby is gonna be her 3rd grandchild insyaAllah. After we have confirmed the pregnancy, then only we started telling my other families and in-laws and close friends. Everyone was happy with the news! Alhamdulillah…

Done sharing my things and thoughts on this PRE-Arrival topic. Though I started this blog quite early (at my 10 weeks), I still have a lot more to share within that, and more to come! The idea is to make it in sequence (meaning, my stories in sequential posts). But it seems like I can’t beat the speed! Like tomorrow, I’m gonna have my 2nd routine checkup with the gynae. But I haven’t updated my story about my 1st checkup experience! Slowww la mommy!! Hehehe…

So.. I guess I just skip it to the current / latest one. And will slot in anything that pop-up into my mind whenever it does. Like who cares??? Hahahha…k bye!!!  Do come back 😀


Update : *My Lil’ Baby inside is now 12 weeks old!*