So Sweet

My kids are so sweet. Whenever they walk and pass by gardens or just any flower pots anywhere, they will pick a flower and hand it to me and say; “For you, Mom”. Sometimes they will runnnn to me shouting “Mommmm! Flowersss…!!” or sometimes they even knee-down and make it like a scene. So sweet!

Every time they do that, my thought would fly across 20 years ahead imagining them as a grown-up man who will start finding loves. Always, I’ll secretly whisper “Hmm, I hope one day you’ll grow up and be those romantic guys that make girls happy okay, not like your dad!”

Make-girls-happy which I meant here by always giving flowers, giving presents, making surprises and all! Cause that’s what girls typically wish for. Me-husband…guess how many times have I received a bouquet of flowers from him throughout our 10 years of relationship? TWICE.

The first time was during my convocation, that was even before we officiate the relationship. The bouquet was so big and nice, enough to blind me with the perception that this guy is so romantic I am one lucky gurlll!!

Totally, totally mistaken.

But God is great He gifted me with these two minions who treat me like a queen, offer me flowers countless times a year, effortlessly cute and sincere. Oh another one! Who will be trained the same by the seniors so he’ll know this is a must ritual. Hehe..

My three little heroes, I love you all so much and Thank You for making me feel like a lucky girl always with your sweet gesture.

Okay not to forget my husband… Though you faked your romantic-ness before, you too are the reason they’re here. So you’re the real hero here. Rightttt…….. haha. Love you moreee!

As ever,
SALZY

Officially a Mother of Three

It’s official, it’s true, and it’s real. Me – I’m now officially a mother of three! It’s not unbelievable. Since November last year when I first discovered this pregnancy, time flew fast but I lived in every moment so yes I knew I wasn’t dreaming when the nurse handed my new bundle of joy into my arms. Alhamdulillah. It was 4th of July 2018 @ 1313 hours.

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Meet our latest addition to the family; ERRYSH ERDHEE BIN EDDY ERMAN :). Welcome to the world, baby! We are all so happy on your arrival. You made us a family of five which will definitely be merrier than ever. Thank you Allah for this gift and for another opportunity for me to repeat a precious maternity journey that I cherished the most in life.

9 months and he’s finally here. I feel so relieved that the operation went well though with some hiccups at least it’s all passed now especially the pregnancy. Honestly, this third pregnancy was the most challenging one to me compared to the earlier ones. Oops okay, it’s exaggerating to say that it’s “challenging” because I’ve heard of worse conditions of others so mine was Alhamdulillah. But like I said, comparing to my own previous ones, this was a bit wearisome for the whole prenatal period.

I was tired all the time, unproductive and emotional (I hope my baby won’t inherit these!). Just look at my blog; I won’t meet my writing target for this year and it’s enough to tell that I also don’t work on many of my resolutions for this year. Huhu! Suddenly it’s July now but I can’t turn back time. Telling myself it’s okay, I’m learning to live spontaneously or to say, with less planning. I am a mother of three now hey I gotta always be on-the-go!

Am currently on confinement, having my good time resting and taking care of my newborn at my parent’s house. Away from home and my husband and kids…missing them all so much!! I can’t wait to be fully recovered from this post-natal condition and be back to my routine, with added items in my to-dos. Rock it, MOM!

As ever,
SALZY

First Month of Kindy

Where has the time gone? The first month of the year has passed at all, there’s no more January 2018.  How has it been with you, this year? Mine, hurm.. There’s a lot going on but one that I wanna talk is about my kids’ first month of kindergarten.

Do they like school? Well I can’t tell exactly. In the first two weeks they were pretty cranky sometimes but towards the end of the month, I can see they adopted the routine already. Let me analyse them.

EDHANY vs ERRASY

Edhany is 5 and Errasy is 4. It’s so obvious that when it comes to school, Edhany is more compliant while Errasy is somewhat the opposite. Edhany understood the idea of going to school even months prior to it. So when it started, he’s kinda ready physically and mentally. He’s compliant I can say.

Errasy has lots of tricks!

He didn’t want to wear his name tag.
He didn’t want to tuck in his t-shirt.
He wanna bring his toy cars in the bag.
He wanna eat something on the way to school.
He didn’t finish his colourings.
He removed the sticker on his name tag to identify siblings.

Thisss boy..…. Always gets us shaking heads with his characters of all kinds! But anyhow, he’s just 3 something right; we don’t put high expectations on him anyway.

MORNINGS

Edhany has always been a morning person we don’t know from where he inherited it. Definitely not us, haha. Even on weekends he would get up early and sometimes straight to shower. To get him ready in the morning is usually not a problem.

Errasy is on the other hand. To get him under the shower is real struggle I give up sometimes and let my husband handle him. But that is the only morning problem actually. Right after he gets dressed and set, he will be in the mood already and one thing so good is that, he has very good appetite in the mornings he eats breakfast a lottt..!

I’m getting used to the routine by now and I enjoy sending them to school. The crying scene only happened on Day 1 and no more after that. Thank God!

WEAN-OFF BOTTLES

I never thought it’s this early but it was actually just coincidence and happened to be, they’re officially off-bottles now. I thought of buying new ones to them but they kept saying no, they’re big and schooling now and insisted to have milk from the cup. This is a good milestone I know but somehow it’s also affecting their milk intake. They drink lesser now and are turning very thin, both of them. This is no good but also not reversible. What I can see now, they have better appetite on foods, they eat more but I don’t know.. I always have this thought that milk is the main contributor for the kids’ physical growth that even if they’re big eaters but if they don’t consume enough milk, it won’t help the same. Hurm… I gotta monitor their weight by time.

NIGHTS

“Once your kids start schooling, they’re gonna be tuned to sleep early at nights!” – This is such a popular statement I received from mothers of schooled kids, and it’s my favourite! I couldn’t wait for the time to see my kids on ‘low battery’ mode as early as 9pm and effortlessly go to bed without me having to drag them off.

But that’s not what happened! They’re still very energetic as usual and always refuse to sleep early. I got thwarted a little of my unrealized high expectation but when I think again well of course? The school duration is only 3 and a half hours. In the PM, they’re at the babysitter’s house the whole evening and they’ll have day-nap. That’s when they’re charging for the nights and so with us at home is play time and it will lastttt up to 11 or 12! Breathe outtt…. Cool Mom, cool….

HEALTH

Oh this is so worrying. On the very first day itself after coming back from school, Edhany was down with a fever! And the first two weeks were all about us dealing with their fever, cough and flu that came alternately on both of them. This is so odd to us because our kids have always been okay all this while, most of the time. They have been at the babysitter’s place for years and there’s no other kids taken care under the same roof so they’re quite safe from diseases.

But now they’re exposed and so easily infected. I began supplying vitamins to them just in hope that it could protect their health and increase their antibody. Things got better in the 3rd and 4th weeks and I hope they’ll always be fine. So far just in January, they’ve skipped school for 3 days for being unwell.

LEARNING & PROGRESS

I was first so shocked when the teacher told me that the school doesn’t give any homework for the kids. I was in between of feeling weird and yeay as well. Haha. Yeay because I’m also afraid if let’s say they have homework and I couldn’t make time after work to sit and teach them what’s due tomorrow then we’re gonna be in trouble. But hey if they don’t have homework then when do they revise things they learn? I was all ‘blur’ and clueless in the whole first month about what they do in school. Are they just singing and playing all day? Do they learn something? When are my kids going to be clever? Hahaha.

I contacted other mom-friends of the same school programme of other branches and states asking about this and I’m calmed to know that the homework thingy is the same with them too. They told me the concept they’re applying and it makes sense in some way. They also reminded me that the year has just started so relaxxx…!! Hahaha.. Such a knotty mom I am.

FAST READING TECHNIQUE SEMINAR 2018

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Finally, finally… At the end of the month I attended this seminar that they held for the parents of Little Caliphs. The seminar aimed to give exposure to us on their learning technique, on how they teach the kids reading the fast way using the phonics method so that we understand and can teach them the same way too. The seminar was so educative to me and I’m not ‘blur’ anymore! Hehehe..

After the seminar, then only they started to bring a book home every day. The only thing we need to do is to revise the pages that the teacher marks as a revision of what they’ve learnt earlier. That is meant as the homework and it’s only reading; not writing or colouring all that so it can be done casually. I’m also equipped with the fancy learning kits to aid my teaching hope it helps! They advised parents to spend only 5 to 10 minutes per day and with that I pledged to myself that I must do it. As much as I’m committed to this, it’s also very tricky to get the boys’ focus but this is what I gotta do for the sake of them. Go, go Mom!!!

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OTHERS

Edhany kept bugging us to bring a cake for him for the Birthday Party when his birthday is two months away.
Errasy peed in the pants on the second day of school.
They don’t know their friends’ names.
They acted like teachers at home.
And for the record, they have never been late to school so far! Well done to us because we’re always the late-comers to work but will not let the kids behave the same! Haha..

One month down, way to go!

As ever,
SALZY

Errasy’s Birth Story

Earlier this year, I went through some tough times raising my 2 year-old toddler who was in the terrible twos phase. It was a real struggle to face his tantrums almost every single day and night when anything I did couldn’t settle his cry. Once he got disappointed just for a tiny thing, his tantrums would last up to more than an hour with non-stop crying and screaming. Can you imagine?

I was so stressed and felt like giving up. One night I isolated myself away and decided to blog about him and his current temperament so I poured all my unhappy feelings in a note book for me to type later. Today is his birthday. I flipped the notes that I wrote months ago and somehow, it curved a smile on my face. The tough motherhood phase has passed; my baby is now a happy boy! At least most of the time, not like before Alhamdulillah. So I cancelled my intention to write all the things in my notes because today is his 3rd birthday, I wanna reminisce the sweet memories of me giving birth to him.

Errasy was born through a planned C-section. I was all awake during the operation waiting for my baby to be pulled out from my tummy. It was a different experience, scary because when I delivered my first born, I was unconscious. This time, I savoured every moment in the operation theatre (OT) in my nervousness.

The atmosphere in the OT was quite relaxed even though everyone was moving around, here and there. I think I heard music being played if I was not mistaken but that was not my focus. During the operation, these people were having conversations with each other like there’s nothing going on in the room when actually, they were cutting my tummy layer by layer okay. In my mind thinking, maybe this c-sect operation is just like cutting onions to them especially for non-emergency case like this. Haha, my God! What a creepy thinking while on the surgery table.

Now comes the most thrilling part to me. When the ‘cutting’ process was completed, they informed me that in a little while they will pull my baby out. My heart was pounding fast, excited and nervous at the same time. When they took a peek at the baby who was still positioned in my tummy, the doctor’s assistant instantly said to me – “Emmm…..the baby is just like you.” She said it in a very casual way making me feel so curious. What did she mean? What did the ‘like-you’ like? I wanted to ask but I felt so weird to be talking when I knew my tummy was wide open and bloody so I kept it to myself, wondering in silence.

In less than a minute, Errasy was safely born and immediately shown to me. Such a beautiful moment and again the assistant said to me – “See…he is so fair! Justttt like you!” Awww….. Was that what she meant earlier? I was soooo over the moon the second I heard that. Having to see my baby fresh from the oven was already wonderful, the remark from her beautifies the moment even more I was so speechless!

Errasy was then taken by the nurses and the operation continued but I couldn’t stop smiling in bliss. It was one beautiful moment throughout the delivery process that will forever stay in my memory. The words “the baby is just like you, he is so fair just like you” stuck in my mind repeatedly whenever I throwback my second maternity journey and even every time when I look at my baby who now has turned 3 years old, today.

errasy newborn

Excuse this vain mommy people! Haha… the same comment if uttered at any other time wouldn’t make me feel flattered like this. It’s just because it happened at that very time, it created an unforgettable mommy-moment to me and I gotta record it in words, mind me. Hehe.. And I believe every mother also has her own exclusive cloud nine moment when giving birth to each child, right! *Care to explain. Ahaks*

My second baby, my second pregnancy. His coming was a surprise, I didn’t expect that I’d get pregnant again when my first born was only 10 months old. Such an unexpected gift, enlivens our lives with his funny characters I called him an entertainer in this family.

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Dear Errasy Eddean,

Happy 3rd Birthday my baby! May you grow healthy, wealthy, wise and lucky. Be a good boy now and rise as a good man in the future. Thank you for bringing so much happiness to us, we’re so blessed to have you as that cutie little brother. Stay close and clingy to Mom as you always do, I may seem annoyed with your childishness but please know that, deep inside my heart I’m loving every bit of it!

Mom loves you so much, Ayash Ayadean.. Always, and forever. Happy Birthday. 

Till the next post,
SALZY

Teach Your Kids at Home

Yesterday, we attended a pre-school’s briefing for parents who planned to enroll their children next year. They organized the briefing to explain about their programmes, syllabus, learning techniques and so forth. Our kids are going to kindergarten in less than 3 months! I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed this whole year and now, at this very moment, this feeling bounced triple. It’s the decision making time. Too many things to be taken into account and everything is crucial. But I’m not gonna talk about that because we’re almost there. A bit more things to be finalized and there you go kids. Hopefully it’s the right decision.

During the briefing, when the principal talked about children’s outcome from the learning, she advised parents to be involved with teaching at home; not just depend on the teachers in school. Well, it’s common, right? In today’s world; everything is on the fast lane. Primary schools’ exam questions are not like our time before they’re much advanced. And so to catch up with this, parents must also teach their kids at home, revise what they’ve learnt during the day and keep track of their development. For a fact, it’s our responsibility anyway. Oh my. Did you just load bricks on my shoulders?

Heavy, and hefty. That’s definitely the feeling every time I think of this particular responsibility. But yesterday, the way the teacher put it in her words when reminding us to do teach our kids at home was so uplifting. She didn’t simply say; “Parents, you must must must teach your kids too. You can’t expect only teachers to do our part and expect your kids to excel.” Typical reminders we heard yet so weakening. She had this message in her speech but this is how she worded it;

“Parents, do teach your kids at home too. Why? Because we want you to also gain the shares in the hereafter, not just us. For every word and every letter in the Quran your kids will read all their lives, there will be rewards to the ones who taught them since they started to know Alif, Ba, Ta. Also A, B, C. Should all the rewards go only to the teachers in school? We want you to gain your shares too. Teach your kids at home, okay?”

Such a beautiful perspective. Focusing on the benefits rather than warning the cause of failures when this is only a beginning. Reminding us on the essence of teaching reward on top of sending-to-school reward and paying-the-fee reward. Telling us the true purpose which is not merely to grow clever kids but to gain as much rewards for the hereafter which is also correcting our intention towards Lillahi Ta’ala. Hinting us that this heavy responsibility is one that we won’t want to cease.

The words lighten my shoulders that were dropped just now. This is my new journey as a parent and this graceful encouragement is one that I will keep close to my mind in holding this responsibility. All the best to me and all parents out there. Let’s do our part!

Till the next post,
SALZY

Current Mommy-Feelings

I had a conversation with my 4-year-old boy about having a baby. My 4-year-old son demands a baby! No, not a baby. He wants two babies! Two babies for goodness sake, haha. I guess it’s something common for mommies with toddlers to come across this kind of situations. When kids are growing up to an age that they know there are humans littler and cuter than they are, they become so fascinated over and they wanna own them! I think in their minds, babies are the most sophisticated toys they could ever have, so they start demanding for ones. Ready for that, mommies!

While entertaining all his quests about this funny matter, I also came to wondering; when is my time for the next one? My youngest child is turning three very soon so that means, it’s been almost three years since I started calling myself a mother-of-two. Then, when am I going to be a mother-of-three? I have mixed feelings when thinking about it.

First, I do want more children. Having only two kids makes relatively a small family. In my life, I’ve been imagining myself having a slightly bigger family comprising of…four kids? Or three or five. But not two because two is very little even I myself have 6 siblings hehe. Erm, yes I imagine my life. We all do, no? Hahaha. So yes, I’m wanting a baby number 3!

But threeee? Two parents and three kids, outnumbered! Even now we’re so handful with these two boys I can’t imagine handling three kids at a time. Commitment. Commitment. Physically, mentally and the hardest part is… financially. Hmm, well.. I always thought to myself that children are blessings, they bring more and more rizq to us even though the expenses are going to spike up. But hmm again…sometimes my faith is not strong enough that now and again I do feel shaken when staring at the excel sheet of my salary projection, baby number 3 goes out of sight at all. Sigh for my poor conviction.

Baby #3 doesn’t come down straight from the sky! S/he comes through another pregnancy so when pregnancy being mentioned, that also means morning sicknesses, backaches and stretch marks coming altogether. I feel so heavy picturing another round of 9-month tummy hopping but hey that’s not bad. Being pregnant is fun! At least based on my last twos, second trimester onwards were pretty smooth sailings. I enjoyed foods so very much! And it was nice having a tiny resident in me too so yeah I miss being pregnant. Aww..

Giving birth? Erm..this is a little trouble. I had two caesarean deliveries before so surely expecting another one next. When it’s a planned operation, it’s usually smooth and steady so I’m okay about that but there are certain procedures I dislike so much making me feel so reluctant if I had to go through those all over again. But it’s called a package so what to do? Nobody said giving birth is ever easy.

All in all, what I’m craving so much is the newborn baby smell! And of course the baby itself because I love babies!! I miss doing all those baby-thingies like swaddling them, breastfeeding and bathing. Confinement period was bliss to me. The first baby year is gonna be topsy-turvy but also the most interesting one. The phase that will grow us not just in parenting but also in life and as a person ourselves to be.

Anyhow, always, after all the thinking and contemplating, I will collect all these thoughts, embrace and release them all up high to the sky of tawakkul. After all, no matter how I thought of the possibilities and the impossibilities, everything is up to Allah’s plans for me and my family and His arrangement is definitely the best! And even if I am not destined to have any more kids, and that only Edhany & Errasy are my all offspring, I will always be thankful and happy with this little family of mine. These hopes and anxieties are just my current mommy-feelings.

Till the next post,
SALZY