I Forgive You, Daddy by Lizzie McGlynn

Warning : This is a book review and it contains spoiler.
Genre : Non-fiction / Memoir | Rating : 5 stars


My General Review

This is a story of Lizzie’s life, the author herself, that was full of sufferings as a consequence from her father’s evil deeds throughout her lifetime since she was a very little girl. She was raped and beaten so abusively and nobody was on her side to protect her perpetually; not even her mother, social workers, nor the court. In fact, she’s the one taking responsibilities of her family’s wellbeing to survive whilst fighting with internal crime. Her life went on with a series of unfortunate events even after her father died, she had to fight severe depression that resulted from her detrimental childhood. She later suffered of frequent mental disorder and various illnesses due to internal damages she had since young.

It’s a very emotional read to me. It’s very sad for a little girl to have faced those ruins that were made by her own father, one who supposed to take care of her with full responsibilities. I’d been having growls of fury in my stomach from chapters to chapters reading all the things she experienced from the abuse, to the bullying in school for being the messy kid others not wanting to get near.

I swear no child deserves that kind of life. All children deserve a happy childhood and it’s the responsibility of the parents or the guardians to provide it to them, not their responsibility to find it on their own! There was an episode of her struggling to tag along with this group of friends going out for fun even though she knew she’s not welcomed and all avoided. It’s just because she really wanted to feel the normal teenage life for once! I cannotttt…!! T_T

It was even harrowing to know the confusing feelings she had in her tender years for not knowing what sexual harassment was and thought it was normal though she not liked it and felt weird being treated that way. Sometimes, the father (and also other men she was given to) did it in a way that made her ‘feel nice’ while at times he unleashed it as the punishment of anything she did wrong and those made her feel guilty of her own and that everything that happened was all her mistakes. It’s a manipulation that muddled an innocent girl’s mind who didn’t understand anything that happened to her. Cruel much!!

I believed not everyone can further read this book as the horrifying facts were so distressing. After all, it’s a true story that explores the life of an ill-fated woman from the bottom of her heart and it’s a worthy read to reflect how life can actually be so tragic. This book broke me down.

As ever,


Arranging My Bookshelves on Goodreads

I think I’m funny. I played around with the Goodreads apps browsing and adding books only to know that I created 10 shelves in total! Haha… Who on earth needs 10 virtual bookshelves when you can actually load thousands of books in only one default Read shelve with no-collapse assurance? Me, and I have my own justification. :p

Here’s the list of my shelves :


Four Read shelves labelled by years? That’s triggered by my date-oriented nature that really thinks I need to group my books based on the year read. If possible, I wanna sub-group them by months, hehe. But of course it’s not necessitous and as years pass by; it’s gonna be so messy to have these 2018, 2019, 2020 and so forth. I think I will just cancel the rest and only maintain the current year and the default read shelve for older books.

Just for now, I wanted to see my collections since 2015 – the year I revisited this hobby after abandoning it for quite some time. My God I’m so good at abandoning things even they’re some sort of entertainment to me. How could it be, self?

Well, I can say that was since I got married or more factually, married to a no-bookworm. My husband, he doesn’t read books! We still remember a moment in the beginning of our relationship; the ice-breaker phase. On the phone, we talked about our favourites and I told him about my reading pastime. I went on and on talking about my favourite books, this book and that book. And he was like.. clueless. Didn’t know what to reply vis-à-vis books and so he tactically diverted the topic into movies. So then we talked about movies. No more books. Haha. It’s funny to recall it now yet funnier to realize that I didn’t grasp that hint telling me that we’re so contradict so why did I marry this man?! Hahaha..

And so 2015 was the year I returned to reading as I was setting up my goals for the New Year, I searched for things that could activate my brain other than just fulfilling my to-do list with the never-ending house chores and life errands. My current collections are all starting from only 2 years ago and it’s growing I’m loving it!

Moral is, even though we don’t marry someone who shares the same interests with us and even if our spouses are more dominant in influencing us to follow their stuff, it doesn’t mean we have to give up things that we love to do. Sometimes we tend to abandon them just because we donned our head with multiple hats. But hey, don’t let our concerns toward others steal the concern over our own selves, okay? While my husband is not a book lover like I am, that wouldn’t space a distance between us.

Till the next post,

I’m on Goodreads

Hi everyone! I’m now on Goodreads. If you have an account, feel free to add me, ya? 🙂

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Source : Google

I have always been to Goodreads to see some book review or most times to find books from specific authors but I didn’t really maintain my own. Only recently, I downloaded the apps on my phone and I think it’s easier now to update my books so I decided to revive the account with my reading collections.

Now I am busily loading the read shelve with the books I have read all my life. (Really? No.) Just as much as I could recall because some are not in my possession anymore. Those that I’ve read in my college years, maybe my mom had dumped them all. So I’m trying to recall those that I really loved so I can keep them in my Goodreads before they’re totally forgotten.

As for book reviews, I will only work forward. From my currently reading to the next book I’ll be reading. Can’t afford to write for every previous one but you can check the star rating I gave.

Is this fun? I think so. I always have something to comment post-reading so Goodreads will be a good place for me to pour some thoughts, at least for my own reference in the future.

I love reading because really sometimes, a book can make me cry, a book can chuckle for two seconds or even make me smile all day. On the other hand, a book can also cause a debate between me and my Husband! He doesn’t simply accept things that I share though I thought it’s interesting. He will question my points to dry my brain and will come out with his points for me to ponder, where in the first place I thought I was the one who wanna make him ponder! How annoying but I guess, that’s how we grow.

If a book is extra meaningful to me and more elaborative to review, I will definitely dedicate a post in this blog. Always, a book can change or set my perspectives on things. That’s when I need to express it out. So, Happy Goodread-ing!


Till the next post,