Warning : This is a book review and it contains spoiler.
Genre : Non-fiction / Memoir | Rating : 5 stars
My General Review
This is a story of Lizzie’s life, the author herself, that was full of sufferings as a consequence from her father’s evil deeds throughout her lifetime since she was a very little girl. She was raped and beaten so abusively and nobody was on her side to protect her perpetually; not even her mother, social workers, nor the court. In fact, she’s the one taking responsibilities of her family’s wellbeing to survive whilst fighting with internal crime. Her life went on with a series of unfortunate events even after her father died, she had to fight severe depression that resulted from her detrimental childhood. She later suffered of frequent mental disorder and various illnesses due to internal damages she had since young.
It’s a very emotional read to me. It’s very sad for a little girl to have faced those ruins that were made by her own father, one who supposed to take care of her with full responsibilities. I’d been having growls of fury in my stomach from chapters to chapters reading all the things she experienced from the abuse, to the bullying in school for being the messy kid others not wanting to get near.
I swear no child deserves that kind of life. All children deserve a happy childhood and it’s the responsibility of the parents or the guardians to provide it to them, not their responsibility to find it on their own! There was an episode of her struggling to tag along with this group of friends going out for fun even though she knew she’s not welcomed and all avoided. It’s just because she really wanted to feel the normal teenage life for once! I cannotttt…!! T_T
It was even harrowing to know the confusing feelings she had in her tender years for not knowing what sexual harassment was and thought it was normal though she not liked it and felt weird being treated that way. Sometimes, the father (and also other men she was given to) did it in a way that made her ‘feel nice’ while at times he unleashed it as the punishment of anything she did wrong and those made her feel guilty of her own and that everything that happened was all her mistakes. It’s a manipulation that muddled an innocent girl’s mind who didn’t understand anything that happened to her. Cruel much!!
I believed not everyone can further read this book as the horrifying facts were so distressing. After all, it’s a true story that explores the life of an ill-fated woman from the bottom of her heart and it’s a worthy read to reflect how life can actually be so tragic. This book broke me down.